The 215th for the 21st

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah. :)

What is...

215th? Post.
21st? 21 years. The duration of my lungs start pumping oxygen in my body.

Why not other things?
Well. This is the goodness of being in medicine. ;)

Why not the heart?
Because I dunno since when Allah allows my heart to pump blood, when I was inside mummy's tummy.

Why not the body?
Because I dunno since when Allah shape me completely into human inside mummy's tummy.

Why not the self?
Because self is composed of 2 elements. The physical human being body and the roh element. I dunno how long my roh stayed in alam roh and I dunno since when Allah put the roh inside my body.

Okay, let simplified it.
Yes, it has already been 21 years I have been living in this world.

How fast isn't it?
And I dunno till when my 'only' heart will continue pumping blood and I dunno till when my lungs will continue working. :)

If I was Saidatina Aisyah, I dunno how much knowledge I've gained from our prophet and how much I've been spreading the knowledge.
And if I was Saidatina Fatimah, I was going to be in Jannah in about plus minus 7 years onwards.
And if I was Muhammad al-Fatih, I was going to success in conquering Constantinople around this age.
And If I was Hassan al-Banna, I had finish my study in Darul Ulum this year.
And the first Daulah Islamiyah was ever created in 23 years of continuous sacrificing and working. Just adding 2 years more.

But I am just me, and forever be me. And I'm asking myself, what I've been doing through all this 21 years?
Its like nothing. Like a blink of eyes and I am myself now.
Still full with flaws and weaknesses.
But still I'm proud of myself. (Please... there is a thin line between vain and pride. And be able to differentiate them both ;) )
Despite all the past that has shaped me into what I am now, at least I'm breathing. And I never do suicide despite everything in the past.
And most and foremost, alhamdulillah, the Light never failed to show my way till now.
This life. My life in 21 years.

Life is beautiful isnt it? And I had one of it. Alhamdulillah. I said life. Not WORLD.
ahah. Okay. Okay. I'm a pelangi defender. Till forever. ;)



So, which of your Lord favour will you deny? :D