Meditate

Its not the 'yoga' or whatsoever. But its the different meaning of 'tafakur'. Thinking.

Yes. Thinking hardly and thinking wisely. :-?

Honestly, I am thinking and still thinking. The consequence that Allah has arranged is just too perfect. Too perfect to be described by words. And, it's not important to tell the compilation of events here. 


Just enough, enough to be said, there's no such thing called coincidence. Everything is fated. Everything is staged and dressed up for us to teach us lessons. And I dont want to miss any. Any of it. :|

She said, Allah wants to teach me how to make up a decision. The best decision.

But I am still confused, till now. Because I don't learn how to let go? Probably. :-/ Its somehow reminds me of an entry in Ustaz Pahrol's blog I just read.

'Jika cinta, lepaskanlah!'

Kalau cintakan ibu bapa, lepaskanlah.

Kalau cintakan anak-anak, lepaskanlah.

Kalau cintakan pasangan, lepaskanlah. (ni bukan maksud cerai, ni maksudnya macam lebih kurang dengan peribahasa, sayang isteri tinggal-tinggalkan)

Lepaskan sebagaimana Allah mencintai makhluk-Nya dan melepaskan makhluk-Nya bebas.

Lepaskan! Biarkan ia terbang bebas!

Lepaskan walau dirimu pecah tak bercantum! 

Kalau ia milikmu, percaya janji Allah ia akan kembali padamu.

JIKA CINTA DI HATI ITU DUNIA, LEPASKANLAH!

Moga gantinya lebih baik.

And may Allah easen everything and guide my steps from going astray. [-O<