Comparison

Bismillah. Alhamdulillah for the faith residing within soul. :)

Actually I don't know where to start. I have been controlling myself all through this week not updating this blog eventhough my hands keep creeping on the keyboard. ahah. Sounds bad. It's just the feeling of want to write something and keep rambling in a 'large' amount. heh. Enough.

I think we all know and never ever like to be compared with. In any sense. Oh yes, but human nature is just like that. Comparing others to our own standard level. heh. Whatever. But I don't like it though. Can you understand the feeling? Just like in the ol' days my mom like to compare me with our neighbours. Oh she's so hardworking, helping her mother. Cant you see, her sons always help her around with all houseworks. heh, it's just me who never like doing all those stuffs. :P 

But people changed and times too. At least now, eventhough I kinda hate doing that things till now. But I still help my mother around as much as possible. It's like the waking up call to help and see your mother get older, tiresome managing you and the family. Devoting her life, changing her smooth skin into wrinkles because of you. Have some heart. Show some appreciation at least. Like one of the sahabah asked why he cried when his mother passed away, he answered how come I resist crying when one of my jannah's door is closed now. Why wasted the chance given then?

Back to comparison, I think and in fact Islam is the only deen celebrates all differences in human character. We all have heard about Abu Bakr, the most gentle sahabah. And Umar the very strict person. But have we ever heard Rasulullah said to them, O' Abu Bakr, be like Umar. He is so and so. Or O' Umar, be like Abu Bakr, you wasn't suppose to make everybody afraid of you. 

Tell me any.

No and never. Right? See that Rasulullah celebrates the different character of his companions. Everybody has their own characters and attitudes. Everybody is designed special in their own ways. Each of us is complementary to each other.

Verily, Allah loves those who fight in His Cause in rows (ranks) as if they were a solid structure. [al Quran 61:4]

Dear readers, if you're about to compare me with anybody in your own standard level I think you're being unfair. Unfair to me and to yourself. Because the niyyah itself is to compare. Not seeking something beneficial for you and for me here. While I am rambling here in order to tell what happened to me. Sharing the so so little knowledge I have. Read and dont repeat my mistakes and share whatever you find good. It is much better right? All of us want the jannah, probably what I shared here lead me to jannah. Oh I wish that so much eventhough it's a lot of rambling here. May Allah grant my wish. Probably my previous mistakes can save you from being thrown to hell fire. Ouh, isn't that nice? Subhanallah. 

I am myself. I write what I want in any manner, any language I want. But I told you before, I love to write in English to polish my English plus expanding the readers' scope. Who knows there are non-malay reading this blog right :P. Yet grammatical mistake is my best company when I wrote in English. I love to write in my mother tongue, yet I wasn't good enough. Less vocabs I have and my 'tatabahasa' is sooo bad. haha. Then, I wrote in a 'rojak' way, oh thats bad. hoho. I wan't to write in Arabic, yet I don't have arabic keyboard, and the most important thing is I DON'T KNOW ARABIC WELL. I don't want to spoil the most beautiful language Allah has ever created. :P

So just read if you wish to. My intention inside, let Allah be the only one who well occupied about it. 

If you find any mistakes, then leave your comment so and so. If it's something shameful, then you can ask for my email address. Be honest. There's nothing wrong with it. 

But to compare me with others, with all the respects you can have, you may leave this blog in the most appropriate manner. I want to protect my heart from hatred. I don't want to spoil my own heart as it causes lots of negative impact to my life. So don't spoil yours too. :D

Another part of comparison in reality, comparison between physical character. I don't find any goodness in comparison between two persons actually. Except if I compared myself to the better person who really strive to jannah with everything he or she had. :P 

Whats the point of comparing, oh she's so beautiful than me. Oh he's so rich than me. Oh what a lovely house, car he has. Oh she's so brilliant in study than others. heh?

Have you ever heard that all these things are initiated by the syaitan. Why cant we just be grateful with what we have? If you think that person is better and impressed you in manner of ubudiyyah, then follow him. And why be jealous for all the things they have. All of  them come from Allah. If you want to be like them, then pray. Allah is sooo kind to grant all our wishes.

I think I am out of topic now. haha. :P

Enough said. The most important thing is, accept the person as he or she is. Accept me as I am. I am the lousy ranter in here. Don't ask me, why can't you be more lemah lembut like other (okay this goes to any male out there probably :P ). Less strict. heh, one thing I ever dreamt is I want to be strict in this deen matter. Just like Umar. He's so strict until not just human is afraid of him, but the syaitan also afraid of him. Isn't that great enough, keep yourself away from bad whispers. May Allah grant this wish. Asking me to change my inner character especially the good one (ehm... I don't know if I have any :P) is just like asking an ant, why you're so small? Why cant you grow bigger as the elephant?

Ridiculous! :P

If you find your level of understanding is different than me, then it's fine. Told ya. We're different in our way of thinking. That's why we have four mazhab and none of them is wrong. The most important thing is all the mazhabs exist to easen our way in worshipping Allah. Easen our steps to jannah. Find the similarities between us. That's make the world a better place to stop by before continuing our journey to hereafter.

I seek refugee from all bad words I used.

What a long entry. :D I started typing this from the maghrib prayer. Stop to pray, dinner, mathurat, tazkirah, then type again, then calling for Isyak prayer. Break. Continue. Here it comes.

May Allah bless all of us.

Need to strive for coming exams. O Lord grant me patience.

Selingan 1: 

A: Apa yang ada kat muka alang tu?

B: Lesung pipitlah.

A: Orang kata lesung pipit kat pipi. Yang tu tepi bibir. Dah tu orang punya ni apa benda?

B: Lesung batu.

A: *Open eyes big*

Happy Father's Day. Thats my conversation with my dad long time ago. I never know I have lesung pipit until I was in form 4/5 I think. haha :P Missing him badly. sob sob. :(

Selingan 2:

يارفيق الدرب إني أذكر الفضل وأثني 

My soul mate I remember your kindness and send you praise.

إنها لحظات شكرا وأمتنان لك مني

These are moments of gratitude for you..

كم حملت الهم عني عندما كلت يميني

For endless times you have held my back when I was down.

ولكم آزرتني في أمر دنياي وديني

And supported me in life matters as well in religion.

إنما يجنى الهدى من صحبت الخل الأميني من يسر في الروض يستنشق عبير الياسميني

Be hold the faithful mate to gain the guidance

for who walks in the garden smells the fragrance of jasmine

يوزن المرء بمن صاحب وأختار وليا وأنا أخترتك فازدت رقيا ورقيا

One is known by whom he chooses

I chose you and become a better person

أنت لي نبع من الإخلاص يبقى أبديا لم أزل أحمد ربي أن لي خلا وفيا

an eternal steam of faithfulness you are

and I still praise Allah for such a true mate

The song is about a rafeeq. I dedicate this to all my readers. Because I know you're my sahabiah (tak ada kot orang lain baca blog merapu ni :P) . A good company is the one who reminds you of Allah and led you to jannah. I wish to be a good company with all my weaknesses. Hope so.  :) The second important element of this deen is ukhuwah islamiyyah, the first is aqeedah of course. That's why Rasulullah unites ansar and muhajirin.

Sahabat itu cerminan diri.

A person is likely to follow the faith of his friend, so look whom you befriend.

[Reported by Abu Dawood and Tirmidhee]

Thanks for being there, bringing me up when I fall.

With all the advises. All tafseer, hadeeth and tasyji3, reminders to help me pacing on this earth.
Jazakumullah bil jannah insyaAllah. :)

GILER PANJANG! @-)