Grandma

My grandma was admitted in Hospital Klang in these few days.

Suspected dengue.

Ouh and I maybe the last person to know. Happens all the times.

The family was too worried till they forgot to inform the one who stay far away from home. :(

Well, all her grandchildren dislike her. haha. Old folks... you know what I mean. :P But till now, I never feel that way. Alhamdulillah. Then, my cousins keep calling me cucu nenek? (in my case cucu che). My grandma comes from royal family, and her children and grandchildren called her so.

She's the one who bought me bracelets, necklace when I was still small. I think few months after I was born. And she the one who keep babling at me when she saw I came back to her house without all those stuffs. Maybe because she used to wear that kind of jeweleries while she's young. Anak orang senang la kan :)

Mana rantai? Mana gelang? Mana cincin? Anak dara apa kosong sangat ni? haiyak.

Masa sekolah boleh la bagi alasan, sekolah. Tapi biasanya balik dari Melaka sebab cuti sekolah la kan. haha. :D Lepas tu my mum jugak yang kena. Kenapa tak bagi pakai ni. Sekian. Sekian. Then, when I grew up. I get used to wear all those kinda barang kemas. BUT. Each of each single. Tak kose nak berdouble-triple rantai gelang. Except the rings. haha. :P

When my necklace lost, she's the one who worried. When my bracelet putus, she's the one who worried also. haha. Tuan punya dia selamba je. My parents either.

When it comes to P.Ramlee movies, she always watch'em with me. haha. I wonder how come I watched that movies dedolu. Then she starts telling me, all the stuff- as karbaret dance, body kerengga, kereta, baju and everything reminds her of her youth. haha. I'm rolling on the floor because I cant imagine how could she wear all those stuffs.

Bila call pun, dia la yang menangis happy dapat call dari jauh. hikhik. Dahlah cucu dia ni pemalas nak call. :P Bila hari raya pun, I'm going to be assistant tukang masak. Tukang masak utama of course my mum. Grandma is the one who decide the menu. Hopefully this year, I can do so. insyaAllah. 

I'm the one who always stay with her during school break. Eventhough currently my family stay in Terengganu. And it takes less than half an hour to balik kampung. lol. Dulu dia selalu bising, as I'm so so not ladylike. haha. She kept mumbling to my mum. Tak sapu rumah la... tak basuh pinggan semua sekali la. And the list go on. Well, nak buat cam mana. :P

But since dah matang (sikit) ni, I know what to do. And what is my job when I go back to kampung. Since I'm the only one yang boleh tidur bilik nenek kan. haha. Pity my cousins, always being  compared with. Cuba pakai stokin kulit ni... tengok m*** tu. But I wear black only. :P Cuba pakai baju longgar sikit cam m*** tu. Too bad. Cant help it. I was born and grew up in this kind of environment. Alhamdulillah. 


And the big family call me 'ustazah'. Just because they see me reciting Quran, solat, wearing tudung yang besar sikit daripada orang lain. AND wearing tudung inside the house and not ON OFF. Who said it is easy. You're the weirdo. The ONLY one. I almost cried everyday at first because its hard. When people keep asking, kenapa pakai tudung dalam rumah? At first I always said 'saja' 'nanti nak keluar' or 'sejuk'. Itu tak termasuk lagi bila I shouted out bila my male cousins get into the room while I was sleeping because they want to take anything from inside. And when my aunties said in front of others eh, nak tengok sikit rambut, umi kata bla bla. Ya Rabbi. Tak tau nak buat muka cam mana masa tu. And I dont know how to react. Sangat-sangat-sangat susah. Allahu'alam. I keep reminding myself. You're one of the ghurabaa-strangers. So blessed be the strangers.

But... sooner or later I realized. Kalau dah kita dapat good impression from others. Means we can easily get trusted by them right. Satu family besar rujuk kat kita. As my dad pun memang dah lama jadi tempat rujukan. A good chance of dakwah then. :D. With all the responsibilities oso. ;)

InsyaAllah, she'll be discharged tomorrow. Kalau tak ada apa-apa. Hope so. She gets well soon insyaAllah. 

As I have cousin who works as a nurse, all info got into my pocket. alhamdulillah. :)

Syafallaha wa'faha.

rindu kampung. :(