credit to DuniadeenHari ni tak tau la... tetiba teringat mati kot..sebab baru lepas tengok accident depan mata tadi.
Belajar forensic pun banyak pasal mati jugak. Tapi round forensic dah nak abes.. sob..sob (ayat poyo, padahal tengok atlas pun cuak :P)
Being a doctor, preparing myself to see people crying in pain and death by day and night. Oh, sound sarcastic.
There's a thing I'm fear of. HABITUATION.
Kalau sekarang maybe tak rasa lagi. Sebab takde la jumpa orang hidup-mati tiap-tiap hari. Tapi, the coming days... I'm afraid of it. Bila hati dah rasa 'mati' tu macam dah 'biasa' sangat. Takut diri sendiri rasa biasa sampai tak prepare myself facing the death. Takut diri sendiri rasa biasa watching people crying, wallowing, shouting in pain sampai hati ni macam dah kena anaesthetic jugak. Dah hilang semua senses.
I seek refugee from Allah, from I lost my 'feeling' about death and pain. I ask for a good ending in this world, meeting Him sinless. Ameen...
Another kind of habituation.
Bila buat dosa. Somebody did email me, masa awal-awal buat dosa, rasa macam sangat pelik. But our minds undergo habituation. Until we felt dosa is something very common. Lets take a look at ourselves, bila dengar orang zaman sekarang dengan trend couple, pakai baju tak cukup kain, apa hati kita rasa? Habituated already or you feel that was something against our nature, our faith? If you feel habituated already, better watch our hearts. Recheck our 'iman' level again.
And the last kind of habituation is a reminder for myself.
This is something that is so prominent in myself either. Its all about reciting mathurat, zhikr. at first we do have feeling 'this is a dua'. We should recite them by heart. But when our minds undergo habituation, we recite it orally. It doesnt ring a bell in hearts. This is something I should be careful of. Thats why, if I'm able, I'll catch a 'written' mathurat.In order to keep my mind, my heart dont go elsewhere while I'm reciting it.
Habitution is good for certain things. But it is also something that we should 'control' it either.
p/s: Teha, I'm missing you :(
Belajar forensic pun banyak pasal mati jugak. Tapi round forensic dah nak abes.. sob..sob (ayat poyo, padahal tengok atlas pun cuak :P)
Being a doctor, preparing myself to see people crying in pain and death by day and night. Oh, sound sarcastic.
There's a thing I'm fear of. HABITUATION.
Kalau sekarang maybe tak rasa lagi. Sebab takde la jumpa orang hidup-mati tiap-tiap hari. Tapi, the coming days... I'm afraid of it. Bila hati dah rasa 'mati' tu macam dah 'biasa' sangat. Takut diri sendiri rasa biasa sampai tak prepare myself facing the death. Takut diri sendiri rasa biasa watching people crying, wallowing, shouting in pain sampai hati ni macam dah kena anaesthetic jugak. Dah hilang semua senses.
I seek refugee from Allah, from I lost my 'feeling' about death and pain. I ask for a good ending in this world, meeting Him sinless. Ameen...
Another kind of habituation.
Bila buat dosa. Somebody did email me, masa awal-awal buat dosa, rasa macam sangat pelik. But our minds undergo habituation. Until we felt dosa is something very common. Lets take a look at ourselves, bila dengar orang zaman sekarang dengan trend couple, pakai baju tak cukup kain, apa hati kita rasa? Habituated already or you feel that was something against our nature, our faith? If you feel habituated already, better watch our hearts. Recheck our 'iman' level again.
And the last kind of habituation is a reminder for myself.
This is something that is so prominent in myself either. Its all about reciting mathurat, zhikr. at first we do have feeling 'this is a dua'. We should recite them by heart. But when our minds undergo habituation, we recite it orally. It doesnt ring a bell in hearts. This is something I should be careful of. Thats why, if I'm able, I'll catch a 'written' mathurat.In order to keep my mind, my heart dont go elsewhere while I'm reciting it.
Habitution is good for certain things. But it is also something that we should 'control' it either.
p/s: Teha, I'm missing you :(
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